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kdrama-movies-more · 6 months ago

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놀아주는 여자 Web Novel Author: Park Soo-jung's Blog

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A: Visit to the Filming Set (2023)

"I visited the set of Playful Woman. I visited with the production company CEO and greeted the director and actors.

Because the weather was hot, we also sent a coffee truck to cheer them on. I went with Jun-soo and only Jun-soo took a certification photo…lol

The production company's PDs kindly guided me around the set so I was able to tour it all.

I didn't take any pictures because I was worried that someone might appear for an unreleased drama, but I looked around Ji-hwan's house, Go Yang-hee's office, Mi-ho's house, etc, and it was all so interesting.

I used to watch a lot of outdoor filming when I was a drama fan, but this is my first time on a set….

Ji-hwan's office and home really smell like a Romance male lead. Meow’s office was luxurious. Actually, seeing the appreciation plaque with Go Yang-hee's name on it was kind of amazing hahaha

(I will delete spoilers from below on haha)

On this day, Ji-hwan, Eun-ha, Dong-hee, and Il-young were on set.

Unfortunately, I guess Mi-ho and Hyun-woo actors didn't have any filming that day, and I was curious about Yena too...And the actor who played Miho's father is someone I like, so I was sad that I couldn't see him ㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠ

First, I greeted the actors, watched them film, and got their autographs during the intermission after the scene ended.

First of all, our Eun-ha, Han Seon-hwa.

We happened to be filming a scene where Eunha was just throwing her heart out to Jihwan, and she was really pretty and good at it! He said it was amazing seeing the original author for the first time haha.

Before I met Uhm Tae-goo, I knew from entertainment shows that he was very shy, so I tried not to talk to him lol, but contrary to my expectations(?), he welcomed me very warmly.

When he signed it, he said, “I’m a lot smaller than you thought in the original…” (ㅠ_ㅠ) “No, you’re so cool!” I said that and I meant it lol.

He looks great on screen, but he's really cool in person.

I didn't get to tell you, but at the beginning of this year, I was actually wishing for Taegu Eom to have a huge success…

By the way, TMI but my husband's name is Uhm Tae-*, so Mr. Uhm Tae-goo is like no one else lol.

The next autograph is actor Yang Hyun-min, who plays the role of Jae-soo among the group.

Actually, the names and lineup of the characters are different from the original, lol. At first, I didn't know what their roles were. Sorry.

"But this author is a washout huh? I asked, and he was surprised and said, "The author is the best... How could I possibly say the author is a washout..."ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ

I also got the autograph of DKZ Jaechan, who plays Donghee.

ㅋㅋㅋㅋ Among the writers I'm close with, there's someone who enjoyed Jae-chan's dramas, so I had to brag about it, so I looked for Jae-chan's autograph diligently, and he was resting on a chair that looked like a male protagonist (you'll know him if you watch it on TV). Actually, before this Junsu came back from the bathroom and said, "There are two really handsome guys in the bathroom." I found out that one of them was Jaechan. As expected of a professional idol, he was really pretty and handsome.

The last one is Il-young, actor Kim Hyun-jin, who I loved the most in the original work.

He's really handsome, of course, and his tall height and his face is… small. Lol.

Since there is a tall person in my family, most people don't think as tall, but found out that I am really tall… and later I looked up his profile and found out that I am 189cm tall.

Anyway, our Il-young is cool from the visual standpoint. He said he hasn't signed much yet and was wondering what to write as a comment, so I just said, "I love you", and he really did lol. Now that look, he even drew a heart.

Il-young should've just been mine… I made him get with Mi-ho for nothing (groaning)

I greeted you warmly and finished my visit to the filming set.

The production company gave me the script for episode 12 as a gift. My name is also printed beautifully on the cover :) I originally thought it was going to be 12 episodes, but they said it was going to be 16 episodes.

I hope the remaining filming goes well, and I also want to see you on TV soon."

B. Watching Episode 2 Live (2024)

"While Jun-soo and I were watching the 2nd episode, the food poisoning milk episode came up.

I had a feeling from the moment Eunha ran into the hospital- "Now the mothers will throw milk at Eun-ha and Ji-hwan will block it with his body XD"

"Of course Mom would know because Mom wrote it."

"No, no that's not something I wrote. It's an episode created by a drama writer."

"But how do you know?"

"Mom has a knack for romance lol"

But I wonder what happens when I close my eyes and count to ten. Will he handle the parents while counting to ten...

I'm curious so I'll watch next week too.

Let’s all watch together hehe"

#my sweet mobster #kdrama #the woman who plays #playing with the hot gangster

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lanawinterscigarettes · 2 months ago

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hi sparkley and aeron

the thing is my friends don’t know and i know if i get twitchy theyre going to pick up on why im being so sensitive as they're a fairly accepting group (although even if i did come out id be scared half to death at just the thought of coming out to them which i kind of tiptoed around the subject and one of my friends said is 'ridiculous' lol) and i don’t want them to know i don’t want anyone who can equate the phrase im gay with like, real me to know, like obviously here im just an emoji in the tumblrverse but out there with real life consequences is too hard

i used to be super androgynous i used to wear boys clothes and everything now im a total girly girl its so odd i used to hate femininity and now i both am it and attracted to it (no offence to the butch people of the world yall are just not my type) but like, badass feminine women, like women with a bit of a fiery personality you get me? this is yapping ohmigosh-

also thats so interesting about the gendered terms thing sparkle

sorry all i can think of when i say sparkle is this song from one of my fav uk christmas movies called nativity, and one of the songs is called sparkle and shine 🤣 i love the movie because every uk primary school (elementary) does a nativity play if they're like, not muslim schools basically any school that celebrates jesus does a play/theater of the birth, and its so cute theres loads of different variation like theres one called lights camel action that my primary school did when i was there a long long time ago but its an age old tradition and that movie brings me back to nice fuzzy times and also gives me hope if i have kids ever that ill be able to watch them in their nativity

omg i got called honey by an american thats such an american thing my life is complete

i do worry a lot about it, trust me ive read every reddit thread religious or not, every scientific article and tumblr blog and xyz, i think ive actually spent more time reading about yk is being gay a sin, is it genetic, is it blah blah blah than i actually have doing anything useful

i have regular nightmares about it too - i don’t tell my friends about that but hey this is tumblr rip my filter

i thought a liked a guy when i was younger but the thought of kissing him was like nahhhh im good thanks i was nervous to talk to him but ive never felt like another guy like that so idk if it was nerves or a crush or what but i defo had a crush on my female best friend at the time (and still do but she now has a boyfriend rip me who is still pining) who was helping me try to get with this boy who i 'liked' but ended up kissing me instead because she fancied me - she wasn't an amazing kisser but man the like, idk stupid giggliness that i got when she cuddled me or picked me up was insane i was just a beetroot colour the whole time

this is such random tmi im so sorry 😭

YEAH aeron i forgot to mention how are you doing in cowboy land firstly do you own a cowboy hat secondly don’t get attacked or anything thanks in advance

there was a terrorist attack near my area a while ago now where the people killed were gay people so lets just say gonna be keeping myself on the down low too we can be in the tumblrverse

yeah im scared to bring it up with my friends circling back to what aeron said because im scared im just gonna break down and tell them and i will literally hate myself if i do that so id rather just ignore them and say i don’t feel well im literally such a wimp someone could slap me and id be like 'oh don’t worry about it!' while im bleeding, but also i get bossy when im comfortable with people and then they hate me anyway LOL

i will happily take that hot drink and a blanket? i think you said i need my hot chocolate

aeron (nearly called you anon whoops) im sorry you feel badly about yourself because of the gender problems i hope you feel even a tad better now

my friend irl is literally in love with a good 3/4 of the cast whereas im like ✨⭐clara⭐✨ but also river and rose

NAH not the floral gay scents also you said in your previous ask that jasmine was gorgeous did you mean the perfume or the character 😭

doing some research on demi i think im less demi and more have a crippling fear of intimacy (not that demisexuality is a fear of intimacy or anything but you know what i mean) because its not that there isnt that attraction, its that for me any time anyone wants to get close and know me properly im like NOPE 🏃‍♀️‍➡️

✨insecurities✨

yes aeron your writing makes my day literally i see a new piece i drop what im doing

omg ufo anon i saw an edit for missy and it was joyride by kesha i think, that song especially the chorus is so missy listen to it

[Chorus] Rev my engine ’til you make it purr Keep it kinky, but I come first Beep-beep, bitch,I'm outside Get in, loser, for the joyride Making every motherfucker turn Fell from heaven, no, it didn’t hurt Beep-beep, best night your life Get in, loser, for the joyride

final thing, are we allowed our anon descrips on your list now theres more anons

sorry for the yap, speak soon!

mwah

- ⭐

I completely get that, and while I wish you felt safe and comfortable with coming out I understand that you're not at the place where you feel as though you want to. I hope that happens for you someday, and until then just know I'm in your corner rooting for you ❤️

I was the same way, though I think it was just the internalized misogyny I had that made me go "ew pink" lmao. It's so funny to me because now I'm transmasc and love pink and stuff

Aw that sounds really sweet, I'm glad you have that memory 🥺

Okay I'm a little jealous ngl because that sounds so cute 😭 I've never actually had a first kiss before yet so I guess I'm just sort of waiting for my prince and/or princess charming to come sweep me off my feet

I don't own a cowboy hat but my best friend does. I want one so bad though (and yeah I tend to stay in a lot because people scare me so)

I'm so sorry that happened, that sounds awful. Please stay safe in crumpet land 🫶

I'd make you the best cup of hot chocolate possible if it were there and I'd give you the warmest blanket ever 🥰

I feel better because I'm more secure in knowing what my gender is and who I am. I still get dysphoria and such but hopefully one day I can get top surgery and maybe go on testosterone and it'll help

I meant the character haha, jenna coleman is just so pretty 🥰

I get attraction but I also don't?? Like it tends to fluctuate so that's why I think I might be demi

That's literally one of the biggest compliments I could ever get, to know that someone would stop everything else just to read my fics 🥺🫶

I LOVE THAT SONG OMG (sorry haha)

And I think I might make a separate post for the anon descriptions but put the link for it in the post with the emoji anons. I haven't forgotten though so don't worry <3

#i hope youre doing well star anon 🥰#⭐️ anon #star anon #aeron answers

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dandelionpixels · 3 years ago

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Hi!! I just saw your blog abt making x reader hcs? And i would reaaaally really love one! I had a bad night last night, so i'm shooting my shot ( ˃̣̣̣̣̣̣o˂̣̣̣̣̣̣ ) I'm like hugging my Iron Man plushie as i'm typing this haha. One of my comfort characters is Bucky Barnes from Marvel and i'd love to request an romantic hc with him! i really really like him as well as the actor who plays him (*•̀ᴗ•́*)و ̑̑ ♡

a small info about me,,,

well considering my bad night last night, i'm just a tad bit sensitive? i got upset last night for certain reasons and told basically the air that "im not a bad person. i don't get why im treated this way."

i have trouble sleeping, i get nightmares when i sleep early or at a normal time and wake up in the middle of the night. i had one nightmare that was the scariest and got so scared i had to wake my older sister up then cried.

i like cute things! i love, love, love plushies. i'm 18 but i often get insecure bc i feel like im not the same as ppl my age? like i do babytalk with my family, even my two older sisters bf know (im the youngest in our family and they're basically family anyways since they saw me growing up) but normally im just a softspoken person. there was one time i was upset and my sister was in a call with her ldr boyfriend and told my sister that it was his first time hearing me without baby talk.

i get jealous? like im not when i see someone like my crush or something i get all war freak and all 'back away! he's mine!', im more of a silent one? like i get sulky and stuff. when im upset im just silent which you'd immediately know bc im usually all fun and outgoing.

idk why and what energy i radiate to people but i find almost everyone of them 'babying' me. or like has a soft spot for me? last year around October when i had to meet up with my teacher and classmates for our grad pic, i was told to remove my socks bc it was colorful. my teacher then said i was their baby in the class.

i like to drink milk and i like sweets ! i like to do my hair a lot too, and! i like big clothes. mostly jackets or hoodies. which if i get a bf id wear his.

last thing is i don't really like physical touch? bc of trauma. but i know if i get a bf someday and be comfy w him id get clingy and such. id basically glue to their side and cuddle with them and all. id also love some petnames, ppl call me petnames and that's something i actually love too. (ღ•͈ᴗ•͈ღ)

im sorry if some of it was tmi, but that's some info abt me!! thank you in advanced for reading this and for doing this! it means a lot. (╥﹏╥) have a good day!! < 333

omg okay first off you sound AWESOME!!! im so sorry you had a bad night!! i tried to get this one out as quickly as possible, i hope it’s what you’re looking for!! feel better!! <33

- i wanna start with the hoodie thing. bucky definitely loves when you steal his jackets and hoodies and stuff. he thinks you look so cute and honestly hes so embarrassed bc he’ll full on blush just seeing you

- i feel like even before you guys were together he’d sleep on your couch, just in case you had a nightmare or couldnt sleep. like you’d wake up suddenly and within two seconds he’s knocking gently at your door going “hey, are you alright?”

- he definitely understands feeling like the world is treating you poorly, even though you’re really a good person. and anytime you feel like talking about it he’s always such a good listener. like genuinely entirely focused on you bc hes so honored that you trust him

- also omg he likes that you get jealous. not in a creepy way but bc its still so crazy to him that someone actually loves him. so like you guys are lounging around on the couch together and he gets a call from some lady he met at the store right? you stop whatever you’re doing and kinda sulk where you’re sitting next to him. he notices it immediately and without missing a beat, puts his free arm around your shoulder and kisses you on the cheek

- he loves the way you talk. like genuinely he’s so glad you feel comfortable with him and he thinks its so sweet

- sometimes he goes to the store and comes back with barely anything he actually needs and instead he’s got a bag full of various sugar-y stuff because he thought it’d make you smile

- he always tries to let you initiate physical touch first, just to make sure you’re never uncomfy :)

- i also feel like you guys absolutely have lots of movie night dates... with snacks and pillow forts and the huge wolf plushie he bought you for valentines day

- he obviously knows how to braid and stuff from his long hair days, so he def loves when you let him help with your hair!!

- omg last thing sorry! sometimes you’ll fall asleep on him and he’ll just stay there for hours, because hes happy you’re not having a nightmare and he thinks you’re so cute when you’re asleep

#ollieshcs #this was so fun to do!!#bucky #bucky x reader #bucky barnes #bucky barnes x reader #james buchanan barnes #marvel #mcu #marvel x reader #mcu x reader #x reader #requests open #x reader requests #dandelionwritesmarvel

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nc7dr3am · 4 years ago

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LILY INSTAGRAM STORY Q&A

“hello my loves!! let’s chat~~”

TAGLIST (lmk if u wanna join! it’s for all of my lily verse content, even the other oc blogs): @aqueenieme @moonbeamsung @atinygracie @jinsoulorbitzen12 @btshook

“how are you tonight? could we have a tmi?”

i am very sleepy. i’ll be going to bed soon, actually.. for the tmi... i’ve had three coffees today

“lily!! read any good books lately?”

YES!! i am reading ‘to live’ by yu hua and it’s very .. thought-provoking, i suppose. i’m reading it in chinese, as well, to practice. mila and evie help me occasionally if i need it. please read it!!

“nct siren!!! i’m so excited- can you tell us about hyeyoung and evie?”

i’m excited too~~!! hyeyoungie unnie is very talented at dance and singing. she is a kind and caring unnie, and she calls me her baby. she is one of my very best friends, and i rely on her a lot. evie is also extremely talented, and her voice is very unique. she is a really cool unnie and plays with me a lot. she is also one of my best friends. i love them so much🥺

i know you all will love them- support them, okay? they deserves the world.

“how is the dorm these days? honey and mr. darcy are PRECIOUS... but isn’t jeno allergic?”

yes, jeno is allergic, but you all know that won’t stop him from cuddling them .. dummie. but at least mr. darcy is hypoallergenic! honey sheds quite a bit, though .. also, i’ve actually recently moved out of the dream dorms

“GIRL WHERE DO YOU LIVE NOW?? IS JIMIN NA FOR THE STREETS??”

LMAOO I NEEDED THIS BABE HAH jimin na is too much of a lil wimp for the streets. but! i live with my nct siren members now! i love it!! it was hard to say goodbye to my dreamies, but i literally see them constantly anyway

“have you been resting enough? i love your solo and your promotions but i hope you’re eating and sleeping well :((“

thank you for caring, babe!! don’t worry though, i’m okay. i appreciate your kindness more than you know.

“lily babe what smells do you associate with the dreamies? and siren?”

*answered on ten different instagram story posts, one for each member*

oh my god there’s so many of them .. mila is definitely oranges and green tea. she uses green tea lotion, but the smells just remind me of her as a person since this is what we’re basing it on

i know we’re not really doing LITERAL scents, but hyeyoung unnie uses this givenchy perfume, l’interdit. it smells floral, but with spice. she reminds me of clean laundry and roses.

evie unnie is like paint. she’s an artist, so when i smell paint, i think of her. and champagne!! floral scents remind me of her as well, but bright floral scents, not the soft ones like hyeyoung. and rain. mixed bag

jaemin oppa reminds me of clean but slightly floral smells. i think if i had to pick a smell for him, it’d be this one aloe and rose toning spray i have. lavender is also a good one for him. calming smells

jeno oppa is like a soap? yknow just the regular body soap with no added scent? it still smells good and it’s just nice and familiar. also, like when something is baking in the oven on an early morning.

fullsun is like if you’re walking somewhere nice and catch a scent of some nearby flowers and freshy cut grass. the way summer days smelled when i was a child. i also would choose honeysuckle for him

renjun oppa is like a forest? he also reminds me of the smell of books, or paper. i’d also pick a beach, but on a cloudy day and there aren’t many people around and the air. he’s like nature

jisung reminds me of the summer nights smell where you have a bonfire. do you all know what i mean? i dunno, it just fits him! and he’s like a nice fresh smell. maybe like when the air smells colder.

chenle reminds me of a pool and i don’t know how to explain that. on another note, mint. he always has a bit of a minty smell in person, too, so that’s probably why. also cologne because he has a lot of it

mark oppa really reminds me of just... that comfortable home smell? and candles? i think amber and cashmere too... those warm, comfy scents. laundry and clean hair. nice smells. he doesn’t wear cologne btw but he always smells nice

“if you can’t talk right now and are doing hot girl shit, what are you doing?”

deadass just rewatching the twilight saga

“should i get a sugar daddy”

i feel like i will get in trouble for answering this

“me love you long tim”

who’s long tim

“do you also still use l’interdit for your perfume?”

OKAY so i use it every now and then!! it’s hyeyoung’s signature smell, and i liked it so sometimes i switch it up and use that. my regular perfume is amazing grace bu philosophy. i’ve used it every day for years

“do you watch crack videos? ily”

ily too!! +yes and i ENJOY THEM it’s very much my sense of humor. johnny irritated me when he only laughed a little. i also watch edits you all make of me >:) i see a lot of czennies posts.

and yes that should scare you

“do the kitties get along with beetle? and are there any other pets in the siren dorms?”

our pets get along pretty well. honey was very hostile at first, but she got used to mr. darcy pretty quickly and they’re best friends. the cats are indifferent to beetle but sometimes they cuddle. and there’s not anymore pets yet!! well, mila has a goldfish too- she just got him and his name is bird.

“bestie i would drink your spit”

i KNOW you didn’t think i would see/respond but i’m built different

“jimin my love what should i do if my ex is trying to get back with me? he kinda broke my heart nd cheated but i still have feelings :(”

um babe he is a FLOP for breaking your heart nd a FLOP for cheating. please don’t get back with his bum ass. idc if it’s harsh- no excuse for cheating. if you trust someone with your heart and they cheat, you know they’re not to be trusted with them again. stay strong bub- i believe in you!

“lily babe your solo was beautiful shskdhs can we expect more solo/lily-written things soon?”

okay i. cannot maybe should not say anything but uh .. LOL

“jimin may i please have your hand in marriage”

okay so i definitely scrolled your account, i definitely think you are beautiful, and i am definitely in love now. also i accidentally liked an old photo gosh i seem creepy i am so sorry

but basically she said yes

“who have you texted most recently?”

*the photo for this story is the cats*

i feel like you wanted to hear a member or one of my friends but i was texting in a group chat with me and my parents. i sent them this picture of my cats, and i also told them i miss them

“ma’am what are your favorite shows”

favorite show of all time is euphoria! i also love the end of the fucking world, joe pera talks with you, the office, seinfeld, i’m now very into steven universe!!!”

“cat girl?”

maid costume is better

“what did u get johnny and jisung for their birthdays!!?”

OO yes!! he loves hats a lot so i got him a balenciaga cap. he really loved it. i also made a decorated corkboard with pictures of our members having fun. i put string lights around the frame and put pretty things on it with evie’s help

johhny is hard to get presents for because he buys whatever he wants. i ended up getting him a pair of vetements slides and a bottle of wine i know he likes.

also!! i got seulgi unnie and i matching bracelets <3

“why is no one talking about the fact that her favorite show is euphoria oh my GOD”

hhhhhh it’s literally art. the best show i have ever seen in my entire life. a few of the other members have watched it, as well, but evie is also really into it. it made hyeyoung cry the whole time.

“favorite food and song right now? i love you you’re so precious”

i love you more, darling!! food is gyoza, but i really love all dumplings right now. my favorite song at the moment is lovely day by bill withers

“STEVEN UNIVERSE OMG tag siren as the crystal gems”

OKAY hyeyoung is def pearl, shes our mom. mila is garnet, for obvious reasons. i’m steven :D

and evie is amethyst but my mind also is saying greg universe so do with that what you will

“answer 100% honestly there’s a gun to your head who is your favorite member”

NOT JOHNNY

“will you flirt with me queen”

no problem baby :) your recent is fine as hell i’ll be in your dm’s waiting

“are you in love”

how can i not be when i am living on the same planet as you

“girl don’t be shy send us hand pics”

GUYS-

“do you have any western artists you’d like to collab with?”

it’s britney, bitch

“i really hope the dating rumors with renjun didn’t but strain on your friendship :(”

okay i actually really wanna address this because a lot of y’all have been saying this stuff, but it didn’t mess up anything. we’re adults now, we’ve known each other for years, and none of us are stupid- including the other guys. we know there will be rumors about us, it’s fairly obvious, but nothing will ever change the fact that we are all best friends, and nothing more. i’m so, so grateful for all of you that were kind, and believed me us when we told the truth. renjun and i, once again, for the people in my dm’s and asks, are not, and never were, dating. our friendship is as strong as ever, babes.

it’s time for me to goooo, i’m sleepy! goodnight, petals! see you soon~~

#na jimin #na lily #asks for lily #nct addition #nct oc #kpop addition #kpop oc #nct dream addition #nct dream oc #nct 22nd member #nct dream 8th member

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kkita · 5 years ago

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❥Sweater|| Todoroki Shouto

A/N: My first actual one shot on this blog woo hoo~ Hope you enjoy~

Genre: Fluff, a lil suggestive (?)

Pairing: Todoroki Shouto x reader

ʏᴏᴜʀ ᴘᴏᴠ-

You and Todoroki planned to hang out at his house, without Endeavour being in the house at the same time as you and Todoroki having your alone time together. But you didn't know it was gonna rain, so did Shouto. You and him ran to his house, unfortunately still getting wet by the rain, yeah he was covering you with his jacket while running but you still managed to get wet.

You and him stood in front of his front door, he inserted his keys and the both of you went inside. Discarding your wet shoes and his wet jacket you headed to his room, with him following close to you. "I'm gonna use your bath room if you don't mind!" You inform him, going inside his bath room. You got his handy dandy blower and started drying your hair. *Knock Knock* You heard. "It's opened!" You yelled. You see Shouto holding up one of his sweaters, it happens to be the sweater you wanted to steal for a long time ago, why? Because it's his favourite sweater and worn it a lot of times that his cologne and scent rubbed off.

"Uwahh! It's you and I's favourite sweater! I've always wanted to steal it, he he" You said, rubbing your hands together, like an evil (cheesy) villain. "Don't even dream about it, i'll hunt you down even if you try to steal it" He said with a straight face. "Now put it on, I need to take a shower.. or do you wanna have one together?" He smirked, teasing you. Very VERY unlike him, did the rain have some effect on him? "No! No! I'll hurry up and go do your thing!" You rushed, closing the door. Getting rid of your wet clothes, changing into Shouto's sweater. It was white half red sweater like his hair, that's why you liked it, it resembles your boyfriend a lot.

You laid on Shouto's bed, pulling your phone out. It had text messages from Deku, your mom, and surprisingly Katsuki..

Texts—

Dekuwu~: Y/N!! Are you and Shouto okay? Did you guys get back home or you guys sick? Reply back plss!

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Mah momma: You and Shouto better be okay, we don't want anything to happen to the future baby daddy

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Kit-katsuki＾＾: Oi shitty laughing girl! Deku's been texting me about you, he's really worried and I just want some peace and quiet so if you and Shouto just stop what you're doing for a while and text Deku back to stop his worry ass. Wyd anyways??

End of texts—

Okay Katsuki! Calm er' down will ya?! Then in cue Shouto comes out of the shower HOT and STEAMY, even with smoke coming out behind him, his towel was hanging down lowwww. There wasn't really any point into covering my face anymore huh? "Take a picture, it'll last longer" He said, while turning his(muscular) back to you, secretly smirking. "Maybe I will!" You just took a picture of Shouto's mmmm back, and sent it to Kastuki, with the text "This is what I'm doing!!" 'I wonder what he'll think when he gets this message' You thought.

"Who'd you send that to?" Shouto asked, "Oh y'know Endeavor." You replied normally, "Oh Endeavor.. wait what?" He said taking a look at you, "I'm just kidding, I sent it to Katsuki cuz he asked me what I was doing so I sent a pic of you!~" You replied cheery and innocently.. You saw his face and ears get red, prolly almost got his left side on fire. He turned quiet, then tackled you on the bed, "You're gonna be doing me huh? Isn't it supposed to be the other way around?" He said, cockily, strange he doesn't act like that, EVER. Then your phone started to buzz.

There was a text from Katsuki saying 'Tmi bitch, keep your nasty ass to yourself!'. Then followed with Deku calling you, he was probably so worried, "Call him back later, or pick it up now, I dare you" Shouto was challenging you to disobey him, "I-I'll just text him and then call him back later okay?" You told him, so he let you break free, you rolled on your stomach, snd started to text Deku, 'Hii Deku~ Sorry I didn't get your call, me and Shouto are okay! I'll call you later mkay?'

"Now.. where were we?" He said before you got pounced on..

☆彡Sen

#bnha #bnha x reader #boku no hero academia #my hero academia #mha #bnha todoroki #todoroki x reader #todoroki shouto #todoroki shoto #bnha shouto #bnha x you #bnha fics #bnha scenarios #bnha headcanons #bnha imagines #todoroki imagine #shouto x reader

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someonefromseoul · 5 years ago

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Fuck Me.

Hello. I don’t know who or what I’m directing this to but I’ll just pretend there’s someone actually reading this. Temptation is a strong fundamental desire that doesn’t always have our best interest. Like that time you look in the mirror wishing you haven't had that donut for lunch, or that other time when you turn and toss, only to find yourself not being able to sleep at 4am from the nap you had earlier that day.

I feel like shit right now. I had oily ass bacon for breakfast, cup noodles for brunch, pepperoni pizza for lunch, ice cream cone for dessert, almond soy bean milk as my “work drink”, only to transition my day into a nap.

I feel bloated as fuck and my pimples are having the time of their lives, meeting new friends and such.

So this only leads me to my usual routine of self hatred and disgust for a solid hour, drotting down what the rest of my day will look like just to fool myself to thinking I’m productive, and get on Tumblr to waste more time complaining about my day!

Okay, but here’s the deal. I really do want to get better again. I stopped working out ever since my gym closed down from that fucking coronavirus (yes, I am that spoiled and self centered only to be complaining about my gym closing during this time of crisis) which has been a couple of months now.

I had diet fillers on my chin area to get rid of my chin fat right before the quarantine. That was a fucking waste of money since my double chin is back.

Anyway, my point is that I want to be somewhat sane again. My mind is literally going crazy over being stuck at home and I clearly don’t love my body enough judging by how I’ve been treating it.

I put a face mask earlier today. That’s a change. I’m going to work out starting NOW. In like a few hours. And I’m going to document the progress and process because I want to see the change and actually hold myself accountable if I don’t go through with this.

So this is the plan.

1. I am 51.8kg (114.2 pounds) right now. My goal weight is 48kg (105 pounds). Okay, so basically my goal is to lose around 10 pounds.

2. I just started an art instagram. Try to post three times a week. I want to have 10 followers by the end of May. And NOT by asking my limited amount of friends to follow. I want to connect with real strangers who are really there for my art.

3. My fucked up skin. Let’s try to clear that out as soon as possible as well. I know I have oily skin and a huge part of that comes down to what I consume. Let’s fucking please stay away from oily and salty food. Drinks permitted is only water, tea, and sometimes alcohol.

4. Speaking of alcohol, try to stay away from that. Which I’m doing a good job of these days because I’m “social distancing” (no friends). I’m going out tomorrow though but let’s really try to keep it like max 3 drinking nights per month. MAX. preferably once to none.

5. You can never single out alcohol when you’re a smoker. Hi, hello, I’m a smoker. I’ll write a post going more in depth about my smoking journey. Long story short, I’ve been smoking since August of 2013. So like 7 years already. I genuinely don’t know why I started it. Actually that’s a lie, I got into it because I thought it looked cool and I wanted to fit in. Sad, sad weakling I was. Anyway, I’m going to QUIT. I literally say this like merry Christmas to the point my friends just roll their eyes at me whenever I say this. Like, let’s really try to make this a reality instead of this having to be that time I cried wolf again. LIKE PLEASE. For yourself, man. You know you’re getting old and it’s not like you have any more health to spare.

6. Work on my art project. You know which one I mean. I want to keep it on the down low. To roughly plan, I want to work on my portfolio around June July and August. but by June, let’s focus on instagram, enhancing my drawing skills from proko, and this personal art project I’m not going to specifically go into because it’s confidential. Let’s call it Arty. So yeah, finish Arty.

7. My relationships. Mind you, I’ve never seen a therapist because I’m not financially independent and it’s a taboo subject to bring up in Asian culture. At least with my family. So no, I haven’t been professionally diagnosed, but who needs a doctor when we have google, right? So to preface, this is not a legitimate claim I’m making. But I strongly think and believe that I have anxiety; especially social anxiety and an avoidant personality disorder. I definitely deal with SOMETHING-I do plan on going to a therapist the moment I get the chance to, which is hopefully, soon. Anyway, getting back on topic. I want to work on my relationships with my friends and family because I’ve literally been in my shell for the past couple of months. Avoiding people at all costs. Not healthy at all.

8. My mental health. Probably the most important one. If this was a meat house and I could grade my health, I would give it a B+. Definitely not a S, not exactly an A either-but on the fence between A and B. Not quite A- but more of a B+. I don't have any serious health issues but I’m not great either. I feel slightly uncomfortable when breathing, my mind is foggy, and I think I might have hemorrhoids soon. Literally keeps me up at night because it frightens me-I constantly flex my butthole just in case things might peep out (sorry for the TMI but this is my fucking blog so deal) (me still pretending like someone’s actually still reading this shit post) I lose sleep over it, don’t even get me started. Anyway, if my body health is a B+, my mental health is probably around a B-. I don’t think it’s around the C level, but it’s definitely below average (average being a B). It’s at the verge of either becoming average or enter into the C level. A or S is obviously out of reach with my potential right now. But I want to get to an A; possibly to a S some day. Some day. A girl can dream. Anyway, how I want to go about this is to keep writing on this blog. Because I have a fake ass personality, I literally hide my real self to everybody. Kinda psycho like that. At least this little spot can be my safe space where I can get all my genuine shit out. To be serious for 2 seconds, I think I’m fake to people these days because I don’t feel comfortable being completely myself. My self esteem really plummeted after I graduated high school. I’ve been shushing myself internally too-shaming myself about how stupid and weird I sound. I’ve been trying to press down all my negative judgements and thoughts because I didn't want to spread that kind of energy to other people which made me be fake positive all the time. That can be really fucking suffocating, guys. Those of you who know what I mean say I.

Anyway, I want to find my color again. I think I’ve been shushing and shaming myself for so long, I don't even know who I am anymore. Hopefully writing like this helps. And apparently physically working out does as well. Let’s try to aim everyday, maybe a lazy day per week.

Side note-Kakaotalk keeps spamming me about the sakura flowers and how beautiful it is, suggesting me to go see it. Um, hello. Can you stop harassing me with these insensitive messages? Some people don’t have friends to go with. And it’s quarantine season? Are you dumb?

9. My looks. which goes under self care as well. I’m not gonna lie, I think I’m a fairly okay looking girl. I’m going to change my makeup style because after not putting on makeup for so long and looking back at my old photos, I’ve seen my bare face for so long, I grew fresh pair of eyes to see how I REALLY looked prior to this quarantine. And I finally got what people meant by “your makeup looks obnoxious.” Don’t get me wrong, I absolutely LOVE makeup. I’ve loved makeup ever since I was a sophomore in high school. I follow many of the beauty gurus (how they used to call it back in the days. I think people call them beauty influencers or makeup artists now) from youtube and Sephora was my second home. My broke ass owns like majority of the urban decay naked palettes in exchange for eating kimchi and eggs for weeks with my poor college student self in exchange. Poor college student with a BEAT makeup look though.

Anyway, the point I want to get across is that I respect and love ANY form of self expression. There is no such thing as too much or too less (is that even a word) makeup as long as YOU feel good in it. I personally did and I enjoyed my extra caked face. But not anymore. Maybe on some occasions, but I just don’t feel like that’s me anymore. So I need a new make up look, and I literally want new clothes. I hate my freaking outfits. Going to invest in some soon.

I can’t really think of anything else. I want to go in further with some of the topics I’ve tackled today but I think that’s enough journal writing for today. If I think of anything else, I can always update later. I just fucking pray I don't get hemorrhoids. I don’t have it now but I’m just so paranoid because I literally sit down 25/8 and apparently sitting for an extended period of time continuously can cause hemorrhoids. And for some reason I keep feeling like I’m going to get it soon. Like my butthole low-key feels a little weird at times. Hopefully I’m okay.

#journal #selfcare #goingcrazy #self reflection #hate myself #thoughts #plans #life

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robbie-lee-zombie · 6 years ago

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6/10/2019 (Why that’s important, no idea, just felt like an update type literal date-)

Read under the thing if you want to learn about what’s been going on these past few days- if not, move as you please- Heads up, it’s pretty long

All that’s been going on these past 5 days. On and off, inactive and not replying to everyone, etc.

First off, the post saying I’ll be back until further notice will be deleted, since I’m back now (unless I figure keeping it up, dunno yet, it’s not hurting anything) this is just an update to that one.

Second off, why I was gone. We got a call on that day saying a family member was in the hospital. They have/had COPD, no idea what it stands for personally but being there so much helped me realize what the idea is. More CO2 is in the lungs, pretty much poisoning and not enough O2 is going on. They had to insert O2 with a machine and extract the CO2 over the course of these days. He is my grandpa, if that’s to clear that part up. He was in a lot of pain, he was scared and afraid because hospitals put a lot of perspective on people. Though, he managed and communicated the best he could.

Third-ish off, no one freak out please, he isn’t dead. (Yet. I’m not going to sugar coat it, he may not make it to the end of this year) He’s actually allowed, and already has, went home today. His house sucks, he’s paying for 8 people in a 3 bedroom-like house, maybe even 10 counting the kids of 2 there, but still. He’s back, he did the final tests, and he was allowed to head home. This might even be TMI for some people, but if you’re still reading, cool for you. I’m just informing anyone who was curious, and leaving it at that. I’m not angry/upset/unhappy of anything if it sounds like I am, I’m just jet-lagged (or car-lagged since we drove) for 8 hours and just made it home an hour-ish ago. I say ‘ish’ a lot, huh.

Anyways, a lot has been going on other than that, but that was the one major reason for the inactive post. I needed a break, we needed to focus on family and what our plans were for the future, and up to now we figured out our plans. I’m just happy to be back. I’ll tag a few people, not many since they’re probably asleep or busy, but I’m tagging the first few people I think could just inform others in case they don’t see this and stuff- I’m tagging because I’m a free citizen and can tag people I haven’t talked to in five days, leave me alone-

@thetickleeraven @anti-switch-glitch @bright-light-mark @doctoripliler @sketchylees-blog @wilford-lee-warfstache @franklyshipping @silvlee-shepherd @ed-edler @ anyone else that should end up seeing this, sorry I can’t remember your url off the top of my head, but I notice/see you and love you guys. I love you all so much as a family on tumblr in this community, and I’m so glad you guys tolerate and have put up with me for so long. You all make me so happy, and I wouldn’t trade any of you for the world, thank you all for your support and comfort. <3 <3 <3 <3

#Robbie rants #Update post

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dyingunknown-blog · 6 years ago

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BEGINNINGS + GENDER

As said in the introduction: this is a selfish blog where I rant about myself and my feelings. Here goes my first ramble. Within this ramble contains bits of: gender, femininity, sexuality and eating disorders. Y��know, the usual mix of edgy Tumblr content. I am posting this in celebration of Pride Month (!!! YAY!!! I HONESTLY LOVE PRIDE MONTH) but also because I’ve had this build up in my heart for too long.

A NOTE BEFORE I BEGIN...

I know you (reader) cannot hear me doing this, so imagine me (author) taking a deep breath, filling my semi spacious lungs, and releasing all that pent up air with a heavy sigh.

Here we fucking go. Here’s to tip of the iceberg, from 4 years of pent up gay shit to recent moments of gentle gender dysmorphia. Do not expect my writing to be fully coherent, nor written in the best grammar. I am writing for my own therapeutic needs, because I gotta get some of this energy released and I have nowhere else to dump this. This piece is a full on rant, as in I literally wrote this angrily tapping away at 2-4 am. However, I’d like to mention that I mean no offence to any parties, and simply want to vent out some of the deep thoughts I’ve been pacing around for the past few years. Feel free to send me a message regarding your personal feelings, or to just chat. I’m always here as a friend and listener <3

WHERE IT ALL BEGAN...

I think I owe myself and you (reader) an explanation on where things began to really start. The main “spark” that got me going and prompted me to start this blog was when I found myself unable to stop playing songs by Dorian Electra. Actually-- to be honest-- it was the music videos that really got me going. The glorious explosion of just “QUEER” screaming and banging its head at my 13 inch Mac Book Pro got me extremely inspired to actually do something about the gross reactions of confusion that were occurring in my brain and body. As Dorian Electra put it, “You know I’m not straight, but I’m gonna give it straight to you.” So here’s my best shot at “giving it straight.”

By the way... I’m from a fairly traditional family with high hopes for me, so the most freedom I can really grasp onto is starting an anonymous Tumblr blog at 2 am laying naked with just my underwear on.

PERSONAL TOPIC 1: GENDER...

So here’s the thing, I stick to my biological birth gender like it’s my lifeline-- my comfort zone-- I guess, if anything. I personally feel like gender and sexuality have their own little symbiotic (or perhaps parasitic???) relationship, where one’s gender impacts their sexuality-- but I can also accept that my understanding is probably not politically correct. I can say, however, with a heavy heart:

I am utterly fucked when I think about my gender and sexuality.

I’ll take it easy first and rope down my feelings towards my gender and its definition. I jokingly scream in the halls that gender is a social construct, but let’s be honest-- is it not? Other than our dongle-longs and hoochie-has, what makes a woman different from a man? I mean maybe it is just the sausage and the grapefruit, but I’d like to argue that... Just kidding, the more I think about it the more I fall into a rabbit hole where I can’t figure out what a male is and what a female is. I mean what are they? Is it based off of the definition I provide for myself, or what society conveniently slams into my face? Is the LGBTQ+ community the people who get to decide or is it the Westboro Baptist Church???

Note: these are not a rhetorical question, please answer this to your opinion because I’m in desperate need of some kind of direction beyond biology. I accept all ideologies and concepts. I’m just hella confused.

Ehem.

Anyways, my own battle with gender goes beyond not knowing where the “line” is, or if it even exists (again, I’m still not sure if this is a personal question or something based on society...) It also goes into where I stand on this polarised scale. See-- I have a bean, a hole, and melons. Alas, in slightly more proper terms, I have a clitoris, vagina and breasts. So what does that mean for me? Am I automatically a woman? For the first 17 years of my life, I would respond to that question with a VERY confident nod. Pink was once my favourite colour, I like boys, dresses, cute animals and romcoms. My physical body only went to assure what I already knew. Now? I’m not so sure. As it is more acceptable nowadays to be “queer,” I’ve slid into the an identity crisis where I realise I’ve never revelled in the fact that I had tiddies, nor felt comfortable about having a coochie. I used to blame my confusion regarding my comfort in my biological gender on the growing queer influences in my life-- after all, everyone wants to be special and sometimes being apart of the LGBTQ+ community is the best way to stand out, especially when it’s being shoved in your face with media. Everyone who comes out of the closet is faced with incredible amounts of love and attention, and my younger self thought “maybe I should get on the boat” hence, labelling myself as bisexual for the longest time without truly feeling like I am (until in recent years.) I blamed my confusion in identity and sexuality on the attention whore who lived inside of my heart. My feelings were only justified as true this year, when I found myself staring at myself in the mirror and couldn’t help but to feel unhappy with what I presented myself with. Undies clad with a slightly cropped black muscle tank, I could see the linings of a “V” line on my lower abdomen and felt kinda hot about it. I did the annoying fuckboy pose (you know, the one where the guy is biting his shirt to reveal his oh-so-humble six pack) and found it... kinda fun? I did have a 36D underboob flail around, but my focus was more on my bottom half, with my Victoria Secret blue lace underwear and masculine illusion. It wasn’t like a grand glorious moment, nor was it like I was the tomboy of the house and everyone just “knew” and I only had to convince myself. Instead, it was an anti-climatic moment where I realised “fuck, I have another problem on my hands that I can’t ignore anymore.”

I don’t know if I truly identify as female or male. Honestly, I don’t really think I need to identify myself, but that’s the 30% of my consciousness who is super queer, chill and cool. See, the other 70% of my mind is going in a frenzy screaming, because I just lost one of my key defining attributes. Think that episode of Spongebob, where Spongebob’s brain cells are screaming and throwing papers around the office setting of his brain.

Another question has also become increasingly relevant in my journey of finding my “true inner zen self.”

Who am I choosing my gender for?

In 2018, and most of the years before, I adored being loved by boys and having guys waggle their dicks like dog tails for my tits and ass, but in 2019, I randomly figured out that I never liked my boobs for anything but that. I mean having an hourglass figure was always (and still is) a goal of mine, but I question for what reason. I’d like to say it’s for personal aesthetic appeal, but it wouldn’t be surprising to me if I just do it so people will like me more. In fact, I battled with bulimia for the very reason of: I don’t know what the fuck I want or like, but the crowd likes “skinny thick” girls so lets do that by purging. Am I currently wearing a waist trainer and corset on top of each other because I like the outcome, or because the people around me like me more for it? I’m trying really hard not to segue into the alluring topic of toxic femininity, because I can rant for HOURS AND PAGES about that, so I’ll just say: I don’t know if I’m being a girl for myself or because I’ll be more liked for it.

In all honesty, the truth regarding my gender became clearer the more I self conscious I became. In 2018, I fell into the trap of sending boys nudes (apologies for the TMI and sorry family if you somehow came across my blog and are currently reading this.) I liked it for a millisecond. Why? Because it felt good to have someone desperate for me. That millisecond died off real fast. My own thoughts pooped my nude Alpha Female party with insecurity and fear of how my body compares to other girls my age. Three days after the first nude I sent I realised I hate my body. I felt empowered in the moment (honestly I do love the feeling of tease. I still do send ohohoho raunchy pics for the pure euphoria of just having someone crave me) but overall just left the experience with lingering guilt and self hatred. I wasn’t sure if I was doing this to please myself or others. I also abhor taking nudes, because I do not think I embody femininity and dislike my body for that very reason. Identifying as male makes me far more comfortable than as identifying as a female. I might have tits, I might have soft facial features, but I just don’t like how I mentally feel like I can’t compare to the unrealistic standard of femininity that women uphold. I spent my whole life trying to tick the boxes under “female,” but always felt like I was just doing the bare minimum... Hence my past is full of desperation, the need to show skin for the sake of proving I’m “sexy” and being perfectly fine with getting mislabeled as a slut at school. Nowadays, I show skin because I’m comfortable and am learning to love my body. I am not okay with slut shaming in general, but I am most definitely not okay with being called a slut either because I’m still a fucking virgin. So hun, I really do wish I could call myself a slut and have that much game, but I’m very far from that.

Anyways, uh more on my gender crisis: I’ve also always adored mens fashion and absolutely revel the aura of being the “alpha.” Ever since my middle school days, I’d secretly snoop around and envy the men’s section of Barney’s and Saks, because it just looks so damn cool. Excuse my lack of “high quality language,” I can hear my English teacher sighing about my lack of “professional” or “appropriate” language, but I really can’t express my feelings regarding mens fashion other than it’s fucking cool. I must say though, my style of clothing and expression of self doesn’t stop itself at mens fashion. In fact, I enjoy dressing to exhort a more dominant presence, whether it’s with a short denim skirt and tight crop top or a loose fitting silk blouse and skinny jeans with a belt. So I guess in a way, my fashion and what I feel comfortable in explains my gender for me. A little bit of both and a little bit of neither. Although the next step would definitely be playing around with my hair and piercing, but I think my traditional family would whoop my ass to the moon if I do it now, and I can’t say I’m not scared of regrets. I just want to discover myself a little more this year...

Regardless, I just wanna further clarify that I don’t feel comfortable being put as female, male or hell-- even androgynous.

And I gotta say, after holding this in and denying it for 4 years, it feels damn good to type it out and admit it.

In deciding to be a “gender”, there are standards. Deciding to be anything comes with the price of standards. I just can’t personally handle not being able to fit into the standards there are for them... Especially now since people are so bothered on being politically correct, so if I’m “not being properly androgynous” or “not properly female,” I’ll get shit on, and if I’m not accepted by the mass majority, I’ll feel societal hate mixed with self hatred.

I also want to say that sometimes I don’t feel like I have the right to be confused or declare a gender because I’ve been on the judgemental side before.

In middle school one of my close friends moved away, and soon later began to label themselves as gender fluid. It was such a new concept that I initially thought that they were doing it as a publicity stunt, but slowly realised that it is indeed who they are. I wasn’t hateful, but I can’t say I’m innocent, even if it was when I was far younger and less understanding. I remember when they first started using their current pronouns, I was confused on how to utilise them and initially disregarded them. Today, I regret my ignorance. Misgendering can always be a mistake, but it can also be extremely spoiled, belittling and condescending. So even though I know someone that probably went through a similar journey as I am today, I feel guilty asking them about it because of the shit I gave them when I was 14.

Additionally, I’m scared of being wrong about myself. I can’t describe it too well, but I’m just scared that I’ll slip up a wrong opinion and then be automatically thrown into the can of “special snowflake wannabe LGBTQ+” when in reality: I truly feel like I’m not of “cisgender” or anything normal. I don’t want to dip too deep into my history with crippling anxiety and experiences with depression, but I will say that I can’t help but to hate myself for being queer too.. Alas, I’ll have to learn how to get over that and continue loving myself, but what the hell am I going to do now? 2k words later and things aren’t exactly clearer, but I can (somewhat) confidently say that I know what I’ll do (for now.)

As of today, June 17, 2019, I have decided to not give a fuck and to simply just identify with the LGBTQ+ community. I don’t feel comfortable identifying as male, female, neither, both, gender fluid, or anything else. I will simply put off gender and let people call me by whatever pronoun they want.

I just wanna be me.

Until I find out something else, or become more comfortable with myself, or gather the confidence to “come out of the closet” and stop being so selfish and finally decide what the hell I am, it’ll probably just be like this for awhile.

And honestly? I think I’m okay with that.

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jumpinyutopia · 7 years ago

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Hiiii... Thank you for sharing anything about Yuto😊 Do you have otp? If you do which one? How long have you been Yuto/hsj fan? Can you let me know the cause of Yuto’s scar on his upper lip (i have a weakness of men with facial scar😆). I’ve read somewhere that it caused accidentally by a kite when Yuto was playing with Raiya. Is this true? Sorry for the questions. I hope I’m not too annoying but i’m just so so happy I found your Yuto oriented blog😁

Hi, Camilla!!! ♥ Thank you for the ask, and I’m so happy to have people like you to share my enthusiasm for all things HSJ with! Your questions seem super fun so I’m happy to take the torch off you because now’s my chance to be annoying with a tmi response lol ♥ Things are about to get a little too personal for the average comfort threshold, just as a warning lol.

Do you have an otp? If you do which one?It’s HikaChii! Does that pairing even exist? Lol, I’m only making that up because it’s a more interesting response than my real answer. Oddly enough, I don’t really have an otp! In case if anyone has been wondering, my favorite HSJ member is Nakajima Yuto. (I don’t think anyone has been wondering. I think it’s pretty clear haha) Yuto seems to have fun moments with everyone, so yeah… it’s hard to pick! I love them all together, apart, and in every possible combination!

How long have you been a Yuto/HSJ fan?Let me just say, I used to be a big NEWS fan. I know, can you believe it? They don’t even cross my mind anymore, which is all a bit sad to think about… but that relationship ended around the time HSJ debuted, so there’s that! I used to watch old episodes of “Ya-Ya-yah” for Kusano (ex-NEWS member, r.i.p.) that a fansubber (Newshfan, r.i.p.) used to post, which was Yabu & Hikaru’s show back in the day with occasional appearances made by little HSBest and little Yuto. They were all super itty bitty back then, so when they debuted I was curious to see what kind of group was formed especially since they were going to be my age. So I watched the “Hey! Say!” promotional video, and “Ultra Music Power,” and you know how you sort of see all the members and go, “oh he’s cute, he’s nice, he’s pretty cute too,” I was like, “ohh~ but who’s the skinny cross-eyed one with the moles?” lol. I found out he was little Yuto (the same one from YYY! what?) which piqued my curiosity enough to watch the makings, and he captivated me even more in “Dreams Come True” with his hula hoop journey. Then “Your Seed” and “Mayonaka no Shadow Boy” came out, and it was game over for NEWS lol. Yuto has always been my favorite, even after he started taking a backseat in the group. I can’t explain it, something about him is like the ultimate flawed tragic hero persona that the hopeless romantic in me just can’t get enough of. I’m just constantly rooting for the guy, and he never ceases to amaze me. Now he seems happier than ever, and of course that makes me happy too! (Make sure that’s on the record, “I am happy that Yuto is happy,” lol!) As for the rest of HSJ, they really just came with the territory. That sounds kinda bad, but let me explain: It’s an incredibly fortunate accident because Johnny-san couldn’t have gathered a more stand-up group of guys like the ones in HSJ. All of them are so uniquely charming, I have never been so proud to call myself a fan. So, the short answer is about 11 years. Maybe I should have started with that?

Can you let me know the cause of Yuto’s scar on his upper lip (i have a weakness of men with facial scar😆). I’ve read somewhere that it caused accidentally by a kite when Yuto was playing with Raiya. Is this true?Ah, the mysterious scar. I have no idea, lol! Although, just by deductive reasoning, it’s probably not from the kite incident because Yuto said that happened in middle school, but you can see that he’s had the scar in his videos and photos while he was still in elementary school. If anything, it looks as if he’s had it since before joining Johnny’s. Yikes, I feel like some line has been crossed here and I’m gonna take a step back to reassess my life decisions lol!

Anyways, not gonna lie, I enjoyed answering your questions immensely! Thank you for inviting me to join the conversation, Camilla! ♥ Keep your eyes peeled and your thinking cap nearby, because I will be returning the favor soon! And for everyone who has made it this far, how did you guys get into HSJ? I hope this was entertaining because this was definitely not worthy of your attention! Thank you for taking an interest ♥ I hope the rest of your day is cool beans!

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aliceellablog · 7 years ago

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Christmas and New Years with M.E.

07/01/2018

Ok, so I think it’s time to vent…

OMG! Christmas! YAY! The time for happiness, giving, spending time with family, seeing all your mates, parties, alcohol, food, and having the best time ever!!! - Well that can fuck right off can’t it!

Just cos’ it’s Xmas doesn’t mean that your illnesses and troubles just magically disappear! If anything it probably brings them to the surface more and makes you realise just how little you can do. Great.

I haven’t had a drink all year! - jokes (cos thats like 7 days) …If you have to explain your jokes they’re not funny! Anyway- I haven’t had a drink since July and I really miss it… well I also haven’t been to a party since then either… or socialised…or left the house to do anything other than go to bloody Sainsbury’s… I have eaten food though… cos you know…. I’m still alive and all that.

There’s so much pressure to be well at xmas, which obviously isn’t even like, on the scale of being possible, but so many people invited me out to parties etc and although it’s great that they haven’t completely forgotten I exist .....babe? Like really? Oh ok, I’ll spend 6 months in my bedroom and then come to your party cos it’s Xmas? Yea right.

It’s weird - I feel like I am pretty public about my health issues- if anything probably too much - but people obviously just don’t really take it in… Someone text me the other day actually and it really hit a sore spot - he asked why I hadn’t answered his calls and I replied apologising and saying sorry that I didn’t feel up to chatting on the phone at the time and his reply pissed me RIGHT OFF. He said, and I quote ‘Whatever... Unicorn impressions in a forest??’

ANNOUNCEMENT: INSTAGRAM IS NOT REAL LIFE!!!!!!

What is wrong with peoples bloody brains!!! Sorry, but lets just think about this for a minute…

So I got home to Sussex on December 23rd and was so shattered from the train journey that I had to nap and couldn’t do anything with the fam that eve… I don’t really get why travelling is so damn tiring, like you’re only sat there being awake and breathing really…. anyway... then the next day I had my one of my best friends round and yes I actually felt up to seeing her (which is a bloody miracle) We had a lovely catch up and her Xmas gift to me was THE UNICORN ONESIE!!! - Yes, she is the one responsible for this moment!

We thought it would be hilarious for me to put it on and have a pic in the forest which is literally about 10 steps from the house - she convinced me to put wellington boots on my hands and get down on all fours (obviously) and it was so so funny I haven’t laughed that much in forever! 10 seconds later we were back on the sofa! Job done!

Does taking 20 paces and posing for a photo mean that I am now miraculously better? No

Does it mean I’ll do anything for the gram? Yes ;)

But in all seriousness, I wish people would realise that I am trying to portray the fun positive person that I feel is trapped inside my body, and to have fun and be happy whenever I can, even if it’s just for a few minutes! God if I put up pics of me looking like a zombie on the sofa all day every day I think I’d lose a fair few followers ;) ... ok maybe I do it sometimes....always with a filter though ;)

Anyway, sorry I went off on a right little tangent there! Unicorn day was Xmas eve and after my friend left I was pretty shattered so again just rested for the rest of the day.

When I woke up on Xmas day I could tell that I felt pretty ropey but not too terrible, I wanted to look and feel nice so I did my makeup (which I hardly ever bother to do these days) and ‘helped’ my mum cook the xmas lunch… basically I stood around for a bit, got in the way a lot, and helped lay the table. What would she have done without me huh!

Xmas dinner wash so damn good, but… how can I put it… let’s just say it didn’t go down too well and that was me done for the afternoon. Fucking Crohns disease, WHY DO YOU HATE ME?! Sorry, TMI but I couldn’t really care less ;) Then that evening we played an exciting game of snakes and ladders and watched a film. lavley.

In the eve I went for my daily walk - I am trying so so so hard to stick to my GET (Graded Exercise Therapy) and didn’t feel up to doing it but pushed through it as per, and did it.

When I started the GET this time around I started at the beginning of October on a 10 minute walk a day (and nothing else other than making food, and pottering about the house really) - Now it’s January and I’m on 25 minutes. It’s great that I have made an improvement, but not gonna lie, I thought I’d be on like an hour by now and could start doing some songwriting or focusing on other things, but nah. Still doing the walking.

Anyway the walk that night just about finished me off and I felt awful afterwards… for a week! FS!

Boxing Day I was pretty much in tears most of the day (sorry family!) and on the sofa and same for the rest of the week - I managed to travel back up to my Dad’s place for Xmas numero due, but felt like utter arse.

At least the main activity at my dads was watching films YEP and flying this little drone thing around home made obstacle courses YEP - which I could join in with whilst sat on my arse lol - We did have a nice time though and it was so good to spend so much time with all my family at least! I am so lucky to have them and am so close to them all, so that’s definitely something eh :)

Then it was back to my place in London for a few more days resting before NYE! The most overrated night of the year!

I was really so touched this year as some of my housemates decided to stay in with me :) To be honest I am still unsure of wether they genuinely wanted to or if they felt they had to, but either way I appreciated it SO MUCH!

I was really worried that they’d all go out - but of course I told them that it would be genuinely fine and I’d have been happy for them to go- but maybe they just saw straight through that!

I was really scared about how I would cope with being sat on my own in bed when the clock struck midnight - I know it sounds a bit overdramatic, and it really doesn’t matter what you’re doing at that moment, but I think it says so much about your life. Sorry, I am welling up typing this, but I think it says a lot to be sat on your own seeing in the new year and I truly hope that none of you guys had to do that. I guess it still upsets me so freakin’ much that I just can’t do the ‘normal’ things that all of my friends can, ya know?

HOWEVER! I ended up having a lovely evening with Grace, Nicki and Tilly- we got masses of takeaway, watched a few shit films, and even saw a few fireworks from our garden :) How romantic! And having been so worried about having a complete breakdown, I didn’t even cry once! YAS!

Oh and we even all dressed in pink and made unicorn cupcakes! Winning? I think so! #PinkParty

So….2018 you little fucker!! What have you got in store for me this year?

You’ll be relieved to hear that so far I have been feeling pretty positive and I always love the opportunity for a fresh start!

I have been going for my walk every day and trying to put less pressure on myself - I think the thing that makes all of this so hard is that fact that I am so driven and wanting so much to have a successful career in the music industry- even typing that again makes me get all teary again but I HAVE to accept that it’s not going to happen just yet- and that patience is the key!

I have so many songs finished and ready to release, I just need to get well enough to have the energy to release them, and to make some new music videos etc. I am really really hoping that I might be able to do one in the summer maybe, and take it from there. But for now my health has to be my number one priority.

I’ll write again in feb! Let’s see if I can get to say 35 min walk by then eh! Wish me luck! Thank you for reading this, please don’t hesitate to get in touch and to follow my blog would be amaze!!! :)

Also, just as a last call, if anyone would like to purchase any of my merchandise, all of the profits are going to the charity Action for M.E. so your support would be hugely appreciated! You can see it all on the merch tab on my website www.aliceella.com :) Thanks guys :) xxx

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findteenpenpals · 8 years ago

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Hey Guys!!!

Hi, my name is Weronika :)

I’ve submitted here before and I’m afraid that it didn’t work because of one good reason: small talk.

Small talk is the killer of conversations, so this time I’m asking for one massive favour, no small talk.

Anyway, as I said, my name is Weronika. I am 14 years old (15 in 19 days o_O) and I live in England. I know how to speak English and Polish, and I am currently learning French.

I love anime (Future Diary, Death Note, Fairy Tail), books (TOG, Holly Black novels, TMI, Illumiae), movies (Matrix, Pirates of the Caribbean, James Bond, Marvel), video games (Tomb Raider, Undertale, Corpse Party, Beyone Two Souls), TV series (Big Bang Theory, Sherlock, Reign, Hannibal), Youtube (GameTheorist, Doddie, Lucy Moon, Emma Blackery), blogging, writing, travelling and so on. To be honest, there’s little that I don’t like, but generally I see myself as a nerd/geek. If you want to find out more about me, just head over to my tumblr.

I’m also slightly weird (as we all are) so keep that in mind. I am also a vegetarian, so if you want to chat with me just to tell me about how we are made to eat meat or whatever, just scroll past this post and bug someone else :)

So, if you are going to choose to talk with me for some reason, please be between 13-17 years old, not racist/homophobic and willing to actually talk and put effort into creating a friendship. Do I really have to say that any gender/race/sexuality is allowed, honestly, I am a confused potato, so I won’t judge you for anything. Also, it would be cool if we were roughly in the same time zone (I’m in BST), but if we aren’t then no biggie, we’ll figure it out.

I’m mostly looking for internet friends, but if you really want to send snail mail, then we can sort it out, as long as you live in Europe (sorry everyone else, but my wallet is already crying because of all the books that I buy).

So that the conversation won’t be too awkward, I’m asking you to answer the following question if you want to become friends with me:

You find yourself on an abandoned island, suddenly some kind of speakers go on and a voice comes on saying “Welcome, we have found the best killers in the world and put them on this island. There are 12 of you. The last one standing will be crowned as the most feared killer of all time and will be set free. You have two days to kill each other. Good luck.” What is your tactic?

Hope to hear from some of you soon. :)

Tumblr: https://www.tumblr.com/blog/fandomstuffies

Snapchat: BomblyWeronika

Email: werka20402 @ gmail. com

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badnboujeesims · 8 years ago

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Breakfast on the Beach

Me and Kierra finally got up early enough to enjoy breakfast on the beach. The past couple mornings every time we tried, we either was all out doing something, or still drunk from the night before and over slept. This vacation was well needed though, even though it was mainly a business trip, we extended the trip just to have a little fun. Only thing I was missing on this trip was my man. Everyone else all boo’d up, I wanted to be boo’d up with my man. But because basketball playoffs was really soon, and he had practices to attend, he really didn’t have the time to come with me. If he missed practice, coach didn’t allow them to play in the game. However, I woke up this morning to what I felt was disturbing news. So there was a blog post about a girl being seen with Cameron, at one of the clubs him and his friends usually go to after games. I know with this lifestyle comes groupies, and I wasn't too sure, if she was really just a fan or a groupie trying to push up on my man and get in my bed. However, this news put me into a place I haven’t been since I was with Mecca. I refused to let that happen again. So this morning I had no way of talking to him. I just assumed because he hadn’t returned my call he was in practice when I tried to call him, but he has yet to call or text me back. I kinda wanted to push that to the back of my head, until I talked to him. I didn't want to bring that up off rip, with Ki. Plus her and Nik have been having the time of their life. I didn't want to be a "Debby-Downer" all of a sudden. I mainly wanted to talk to her about being my personal stylist though. like legitimate start a team, I been so heavy in thought about my career, and with the success of my Sports Illustrated Magazine Cover, I honestly was ready to take on more gigs. I know she would be there for me when I need her for a job, but I was def willing to pay her at any costs for her services... so this morning I laid out my business plan.

"I need a really good manager, I really plan on continuing with modeling. And I need to take this serious. With all these new business ventures I'm starting, ‘The Loft” and “Get Inked”, I need a manager, an assistant, a receptionist, a nanny. It just so much I have to do."I said, with frustration in my voice.

Even though it was kind-of stressful thinking about what the next chapter in my life was going to be like. I was really happy that I finally made a step in chasing my dreams. I hadn’t really paid attention but Kierra was not playing with her food, sis was half way done with her food because whole time I was talking she was eating, I figured I slide my little idea.

“Damn sis, you’re hungry huh?” I said laughing “But also i thought, since your so good with everything, my outfits, my make-up and hair n‘shit, why not do it as a part-time job for me.” I tried to make it so sweet and innocent by giving her the hardest grin. She damn near choked from laughing.”I’m sorry I was trying make it seem as sweet and innocent by smiling.” I started laughing. “But I’m very serious, I would definitely pay you what ever you charge or want to charge me.”

She really started considering it, I could tell in her face. Sis started rubbing her chin. I knew I had her thinking about it.

“Well first, dick and liquor did this to mean because I haven’t ate since yesterday. Blame your cousin, I’m hungry!!”

“Yea that’s TMI, I don’t want to hear about my cousin sis ew.“ I said jokingly.

“I’ll consider it seriously though, I’ve been trying to get into somebody store or salon since we been in Cali. I haven’t came across any stores that suits me there” She said with this look on her face.

Just then, a light bulb went off in my head. Marciano has the perfect basement space in his Shop. I figured why not let her use that has her lil studio for the time being.

“I really didn’t know you were trying to get into someones salon. I would’ve helped out with that when you guys moved to Cali. You know I could’ve helped I know people. I mean honestly, a bitch with hands and style as you, you need your own business. I think I have an idea though,” I said while rubbing my hands like I got the master plan. “Marciano has space in his basement, we can turn that into a little something for you. I mean, the space is unoccupied. You and Nik ever talked about getting you your own spot?”

“We’ve talked about it. but he’s stays downstairs in the studio with B all day.”

“So have you brought back up to him? I mean he’s at the shop with Marciano sometimes too, I’m sure he knew about the space in the basement.“

“Yeah, I’ve been looking online at places all the time. But nothing has caught my eye and has been damn near out of our budget right now since the move.”

I could tell in her tone that, that was her dream. And she wanted to do the one thing she loved. I know Nik dragged her to California, It was only right he help her achieve her dreams. I figured let’s kill two birds with one stone. Since I need a stylist, she needs a studio to work out of. Let’s ask the owner of Get Inked.

“I can definitely tell you that you have a talent, and you can make money off that talent. I can tell that doing hair and fashion is your passion. I’m going to talk to my brother about using the space. And if he wants to charge something, I’ll handle that because I need you on my team at all cost.” Once I said that she was as eager I was. The conversation we had honestly went in another direction than I thought.

“Girl that would be dope as hell, and if your brother tries to charge us anything besides a little rent, he can cut it. And I would beat his ass.” she said laughing.

“I honestly would have never known you wanted your own salon if i never asked. And you would have never known it was an extra room in Marciano studio. See what happens when great minds come together. And you’re right as fuck, if he try to tax, all three of us, Me, You and Yas gon beat his ass.”

We got up and hauled ass out to find my brother. We had business offers ready for approval. I'm just the friend that’s gon’ make sure everybody eating good.

We had finished our food by now, doing all that “business” talk and I had for got all about telling her about the Cameron situation earlier. We had came up with an idea and business offer for the business man him-self. I figured I’d tell her about Cameron behind closed doors. I was very suspicious of the guy there, he kept walking past our table. I couldn’t let the paparazzi hear such sensitive information. Our brainstorming conversation was sensitive as well anyway but I wasn’t going to be caught slipping.

To Be Continued...

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to-dance-beneath-the-diamond-sky · 8 years ago

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You might not be answering since this is from a bit of an old post. Swooping Evil, Glumbumble, pixie, mooncalf and ghoul.

Okay, so first off, THANK YOU lovely anon for sending me this!!!! I love getting asks! And also THANK YOU for actually scrolling back through my blog to even see this! Cause like this is from a while ago! So this is from this Harry Potter Magical Creature Themed Ask. Alright, so here we go!

Swooping Evil: In what way are you often misunderstood?

Hmmm, I feel like I like to think that I’m just an incredibly misunderstood person *sigh* but honestly, I don’t know if that’s just me being overdramatic or if that’s actually true lol.

I’m often misunderstood by people who don’t realize that I’m being sarcastic, which is actually quite unfortunate because it causes a lot of problems.

Like, apparently I look like someone who’s very sincere/innocent (or so I’ve been told) and I come across as kind of shy and sweet (lmao I know) especially to people that I’m not close with. And, I have a very wry sense of humor, like my sarcasm is pretty subtle/dry and I say it pretty straight-faced, and I feel like my sense of humor is a bit more sophisticated/subtle (that’s what one of my therapists told me anyway) and so people don’t always get whatever joke I’m making, and then on top of that, they think I’m this sweet little goody-two-shoes innocent thing who is Sincere™ and all that, so they get all taken aback when I’m sarcastic. They either think they’ve severely offended me or they think I’m being a bitch or they just feel incredibly uncomfortable because they think I’m being honest.

And then of course, I always make everything considerably more awkward and ten times worse by trying to explain my joke and proceeding to talk myself into a giant hole (thanks anxiety).

So, an example of this is how when I was 14 I had surgery on my neck/throat and for several years I had a pretty noticeable scar across my throat. And I used to be super self conscious about it, so I’d try to joke about it anytime someone commented on it. So whenever someone asked me what the scar on my neck was, I’d look them straight in the eye and be totally nonchalant/casual and say something like “oh I got into a knife fight but it’s fine you should see the other person” or “I was kidnapped and held hostage at gun–well technically knife–point, but like it’s fine ‘cause the police killed the guy in a shootout so it’s all good.”

And let me put this in perspective, I was literally the most innocent 14 year old ever. Like, I went to an all girls school, I wore bows in my hair pretty much every day, I never wore makeup, my entire wardrobe was pink, I was a total goody two shoes, I never understood any innuendo or dirty jokes, I didn’t even know let alone talk to any boys, and I didn’t swear. Like, I was so innocent (see the photo below of 14 year old me for reference)

So it was so completely outlandish/absurd because there was no way it was true. So I’d say that as a joke because lmao have you seen me? But like, so many people legitimately believed me and got all freaked out. And eventually I told them I was being sarcastic, but it was always fun to see how fucking gullible some idiots were lol.

So yeah, my humor is often misunderstood. And that example’s pretty innocuous but other times my sarcasm has actually caused legit problems, like with people getting mad at me (one of my teammates and former roommates got offended by something I said (though she never told me what it was specifically I did to offend her so much, but I’m assuming it was something I said sarcastically that she didn’t understand and just assumed was me being rude because in all honesty I’m pretty nice to people and I go above and beyond out of my way to make sure that I don’t ever say anything offensive or that could hurt people’s feelings (since I’m an oversensitive bitch who obsessively overthinks/freaks out/worries/gets hurt by about absolutely everything, I figure that other people might be that way too so I should do my best not to hurt them (and then of course my anxiety + overthinking leads to me being overly cautious not to hurt people’s feelings or say insensitive things))) and refused to talk to me or even acknowledge my existence for almost five months, which was actually a really big fucking pain in the ass because we saw each other literally every day and there are only 15 people on the team but whatever). Wow that was long, lol sorry

Glumbumble: What’s something that makes you really melancholy?

A lot of things lol. I mean, I have a shit ton of mental illnesses/disorders, BPD and depression included, so I spend a lot of time being pretty melancholy lol. Like stupid little things trigger me. Though I guess being melancholy is different than being/feeling depressed, but honestly, I can’t really tell the difference. Because I don’t really just get a little bit sad/melancholy. I get severely depressed. I don’t experience any small emotions, everything for me is turned way up to the extreme (thank you BPD you fucking bitch). I don’t feel things a little bit, or halfway. Everything is intense. So like, if being melancholy is different than being depressed, assuming it’s less intense, then I don’t really know what it’s like because I don’t really experience it. When I’m sad, I don’t just feel melancholy/blue, I feel catatonically depressed and suicidal. So yeah. Sorry that doesn’t really answer that and that was probably waaaaay TMI.

Pixie: Do you like play tricks on people?

Not really. I mean, with my roommate/(former)best friend I always loved to sneak up on her and jump out at her. But honestly, I only did that because she legit screamed and fell out of her chair every single fucking time. And it was hilarious. But other than that, nah I’m not really a trick playing kind of person. Like, I’ll be sarcastic and play tricks on one or two of my friends by pretending that we had an assignment/test that day. But really, I only did that with one or two specific people and it was a joke that we always had because they never paid attention in class and always asked me what the homework was and saved everything until last minute and was just all around super lazy.

Mooncalf: How adorable are you?

Well. Here’s the thing. When I was a child I was absolutely adorable. Like 100% adorable, most likely the cutest child in the room. And like, not just cute looking, but apparently I was super friendly/bubbly/happy/cuddly/sweet/etc. (I say apparently because I can’t fucking remember being that way, hell I can’t even remember the majority of my childhood but that’s a whole other story, but that’s what I’ve been told by all the adults who knew me as a kid). And also, I said/did super cute things and I loved the color pink more than life and always wore bows in my hair. Like I’m not joking I was the fucking most adorable thing ever. (lol I don’t know what happened)

Allow me to prove this point.

Now please forgive me for posting so many pictures, but I like to reminisce about the fact that once upon a time I was actually cute. Like, I honestly don’t know what happened.

As for now, my current level of adorableness is in the eye of the beholder. So basically, to some, perhaps I am adorable but it truly is a question of taste lol.

Aesthetically/physically, I don’t think I am even remotely adorable. Personally, I actually think I’m pretty ugly to be honest (years of self hatred and mental illness tend to do that to you). But I guess to other people I’m probably not absolutely hideous or anything. As for general adorableness, it depends who you ask. So like, to some people perhaps my quirks/oddities are adorable but to other people I’m just crazy as fuck. I personally of the opinion that I am a complete and total loser lol.

I still love pink. And I still like wearing bows/flowers in my hair. I also have this pink piggy hat that I got in middle school that I wear during the winter (my friends all make fun of me so much, but honestly I think the hat is fucking adorable and it’s warm and I don’t care if I look stupid) So on that front, maybe I’m adorable to some people. But it could just as easily be seen as childish and stupid.

Now I have some…erm...quirks that could maybe possibly be seen as adorable in some instances. Like I have this ridiculous thing where I snort when I laugh. I personally find it unbelievably unfortunate and unattractive but several of my friends have told me it’s endearing and that the boy that falls in love with me (lol let’s be real, that’s never going to happen) will think it’s absolutely adorable. I also make the most ridiculous little cat squeaking/squealing noises when I get hurt or am surprised or when I fall down (same with the unfortunate laugh; I personally think it’s embarrassing and unattractive like no other, but I have friends who disagree). Which is another thing, I’m clumsy AF. I trip and stumble and fall a lot. I am personally of the opinion that that’s not even remotely cute, but some people have said that it’s cute/endearing.

I also get really really really distracted by fluffy animals (dogs especially) and will literally stop talking mid conversation to point out a squirrel and go say hi to it (I’m legit like the dog from UP), and I must pet every single dog/cat I see. And I will legitimately have extensive in depth conversations with dogs (I worked as a dog walker over the summer, and one time I accidentally butt-dialed my mom and left her a four and a half minute voicemail of me talking to the dog I was walking lmao)

And I get super enthusiastic about things. And when I’m excited I absolutely lose my shit. Like I get so excited I squeal and jump up and down and talk at 10,000 words a minute. When I smile when I’m super happy, I legit look like a fucking chipmunk (I’ve been told this by numerous people on numerous occasions). Sometimes when I’m super excited I get so hyper and I do a little excited happy dance and hop up and down and wave my arms because I can’t contain my excitement.

I have this awful habit of always singing/humming under my breath because I always have songs stuck in my head. And I literally cannot stop myself from singing along to songs that I like. Also I have a really good memory for song lyrics and lines/quotes, and whenever someone says something that happens to be a line from a song, I literally cannot stop myself from bursting into song and singing the song that they inadvertently quoted. (I have a particularly large repertoire of songs from broadway musicals). And I love different accents and dialects and stuff and I do them all the time, and sometimes I don’t realize that I’ve accidentally switched into some other accent mid sentence.

Basically, I’m a lot like a small child. So if you find that endearing, then you might think I’m adorable. But if not, lol I’m a fucking crazy loser. Anyways, here are some pictures from the past couple years, so you can judge yourself whether or not you think I’m adorable. As I said before, I personally am of the opinion that I am a massive nerd and I am unbelievably uncool and I literally have zero social skills and I am weird as fuck and the definition of a loser. But you can judge for yourself.

(me pretending to be all edgy and cool with my fake tat sleeve at my high school graduation party but I’m legit wearing a fucking flower crown so...)

(for no other reason than the fact that I wanted to climb a tree)

(btw all this money is from a fundraiser for the community service club, which I was co-president of, and my friend and I were counting it to see how much we raised)

Wow that was fucking long. Sorry about that lol

Ghoul: Is there something you do that really annoys people?

Oh definitely. I’m pretty sure that I’m a highly annoying person. Hell I annoy the crap out of myself most days. But the first thing that comes to mind is my ridiculously deep sleep and subsequent alarm clock paranoia. That has driven all of my past roommates nuts. Basically, I am always in a state of severe sleep deprivation because I spend waaaaayyy too much time doing my work (I’m a perfectionist + I have ADHD + OCPD + a learning disability + lots of other super fun psychiatric disorders which means that basically I don’t fucking sleep). And when I finally do sleep, I pass the fuck out. Like I’ll legitimately sleep for 32 hours straight (yes I know that’s not even remotely healthy). And the problem is that some of the medications I take make it so that I cannot sleep. So I have to take another medication so that I can actually sleep. But it knocks me the fuck out, and it makes it really hard to wake up. And the problem is that I have shit I need to wake up for, like classes, team practice, or because I have a shit ton of work to do. And I know that I’m a super heavy sleeper and I get soooo paranoid about sleeping through my alarms and missing classes/other things I need to go to (it’s happened a lot) so I set literally over 70 different alarms on my phone for when I need to wake up. I’ll start the alarms about an hour before I need to get up and have one every ten minutes, and then once it gets closer to the time that I need to wake up, I have an alarm literally every other minute. And I literally keep the alarms going for hours and hours after the time I’m supposed to wake up in case I totally slept through the first set(s) (it’s happened). And because I’m so terrified of sleeping through things, I tend to just not sleep, which of course makes it worse when I finally do sleep.

Basically where I’m going with this is that I am a fucking pain in the fucking ass. I sleep through my alarms and literally don’t even budge and they just keep going off for hours. Yeah. It’s not good. I know it’s a problem. My roommate last year, who was also my best friend, would bring out her angry man voice when my alarms started going off. Her voice would go all low and super angry and she’d say my name really loudly and I swear that would wake me up like nothing else because I was fucking terrified of her. She’d bark out my name and I’d instantly wake up and start apologizing while wildly fumbling to shut off the alarms (and then of course I’d fall back asleep the second I turned a bunch of them off and have no memory of this whatsoever because I wasn’t actually awake it was just like an unconscious stress response to her man voice and then this would happen again a few hours later when my alarms went off again). And I always apologized to her so much over this, and we’d laugh about it (when neither of us were trying to sleep) and about how her grouchy/angry man voice is so low and how I’m legitimately terrified of it. Plus she did tons of really annoying/bad shit as a roommate so she couldn’t get too mad at me. She more just got grouchy when she was trying to sleep, which is totally understandable. Plus I know I’m beyond annoying like that, and I feel awful about it, but it’s a medical problem and I can’t really help it, but I am working on it so :/

Wow this was crazy long and way more information than anyone wanted to hear, and frankly, I doubt anyone will even read this (which makes it even more absurd that I spent so fucking long writing this but whatever).

Anyways thank you for sending me this ask and sorry for taking a while to answer it and for also giving waaaaaaaaaaaay TMI on it. I hope you have a lovely day!

Lots of love,-Lia

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